And we were off once again, all weekend long. We crammed a whole lot of visiting, eating, museum exploring and driving, driving, driving into two-and-a-half days. I am woefully behind on my correspondence (I apologize!). I've taken to dialing numbers on my cell phone and then forgetting, while the phone is ringing, who the heck I'm actually calling, and why I'm calling them. Our summer calendar, with all its scribbled notes and overlapping appointments, is becoming increasingly trickier to decipher. It's hot as the dickens around here and some of our overdue library books are missing. Yes, it's pretty darn safe to say you wouldn't describe me as, "having my act together," but, and here's the crazy thing, I am surprisingly content.
Que sera sera! I can embrace the chaos, it turns out, when I embrace love as the highest calling - when I open the doors of my less than perfect home, when I open my less than perfect heart - and let others in. I've had so many opportunities this last month and a half to get over my petty disappointments and frustrations by way of having my eyes opened to the battles being fought by friends and neighbors. Entering into their struggle, as a supporter and confidante, into their joys and unique perspectives is alleviating much of my vanity and anxiety.
Forgive me for being redundant (I've been blogging a great deal on this topic lately), it's just that I've always been so protective of my time, my precious time. I've always feared what would happen if I surrendered it. This is kind of a big break through for me, the realization that, oh, I do have time after all to work out my salvation through surrendering my rigid ideals. Even the smallest amount of time sacrificed on behalf of someone other than myself can move mountains in my soul.
Below is a prayer that reminds me to weep with those who weep and rejoice with those who rejoice:
Prayer for our Neighborhood Families
I pray to You, God, for the families of my neighborhood. Visit them. Throw their troubles out of them and bring hope. Make the daily cares that devour the heart disappear. Present solutions to life's problems. Settle the disturbed relationships among members of different families whom I know or don't know. O Lord, remind the people of our area that You exist, that You are a strong and loving Protector. Keep away, Lord, anything that causes the disappearance of peace from souls, and the escape of sleep from our eyes. Stay a little more tonight in our neighborhood. Spread peace along the night. Let the harshness of the day and its struggles not spread over the night too, God.
Archbishop of America
Peace to you today.